So basically, this is what I perceived to be the sole purpose of the series finale of Lost, and perhaps the show as a whole, which is interesting because this is precisely the huge issue I'm having in my life right now. The finale portrayed characters realizing their respective fates, that they all died, and accepting it, and finally letting go.....to say it more precisely, "Whatever happened, happened!" Once it's over, there is nothing left but to be happy in a final sense.
And while I have some traditional ideas about what happens to all of us when we die, this idea of surveying a life, the good, the bad, and finding the balance is more what I think the predominantly Christian idea of "judgment day" will look like. We will survey our own lives, look at the good, the bad, the love, the pain and in that learn to let go.
Despite my own ideas and perspectives about the possible life to come, the real issue this show, and this episode in particular, revealed about myself is that I find learning and applying this major life lesson in the here and now incredibly difficult. And here I am again, trying to control the situation, forcing myself to be a better, a more whole and relaxed individual. Maybe the point is that we can't truly learn and apply this life lesson until life is over. Maybe I need to learn to let go of the need to let go....if that makes any sense at all. Maybe I can only let go when there is "no here, no now" as Jack's father put it.
This issue affects so many aspects of my life from my issues with my father, the goals Greg and I have for the future, and just the little things day to day. I want to let go of my broken heart over the choices my father has made, my wild insecurity that my dreams and aspirations won't become a reality, and that Greg didn't do something around the house the way that I feel it should be done. I really feel like I will only be able to embrace this life in all it's fullness until I am able to move past what is the true root of my insecurity about letting go, my need to CONTROL EVERYTHING!
Anyways....on a more trivial note, I have to say that while the Lost finale may not have been everything I would have wanted from the finale, it was deeply emotionally satisfying to see that the show was about the truest form of love. And, ending on this note, I was right from day one about the show...it was never a plot driven show...it was always character driven story right up to the very end! And it is precisely for this reason, I'm able to....let go...of what I thought should happen.
